Dunbar's Number

Well if the pageviews were anything, lots of you are still entering a state of confusion (or as I like to see it: 'WTF???') about the whole setting up of this blog so I might as well start with something personal yet not so personal. Yes I'm contradictory like that.

Here is Dunbar's number. For those of you who couldn't spare the time (or give a crap) about reading the article, let me try to sum it up for you:

We're only going to give a crap for a finite number of people.
And it's NOT a number that's the total number of people in the world

Basically, no matter how 'altruistic' or 'nice' we might really want to be, we honestly couldn't give a crap about certain people. More importnatly, we can't exactly form stable relationships with them.

I'm not saying that being nice is a weakness, I just feel you can't be nice to everybody. It kinda first hit my mind when one of my fellow Boys' Brigade friends (oh yes, I'm a Christian, though a bit agnostic at that, more on that some other time), when he related a story of being unable to help a little child in some country that's not Singapore that made him feel truly helpless. The fact I can't even remember what the hell the country's name was already shows how apathetic and jaded I am to the whole situation.

It's the feeling that's probably making you feel a lot of y'all depressed so here's a video that explains it with humour, which I'm not good at. (In the meantime distract yourself with some K-Pop songs if you get really depressed)

It kinda extends to my personal life as well, I admit, I have a tendency to categorize anybody I think comes from a mental institution as a 'weirdo' (don't worry, only 2 people fit the bill so far and one of them is actually my friend). And for anybody who claims to be non-discriminatory, please spare me the crap and consider this hypothetical situation:

"I am such a nice guy, I don't think anybody in this world truly means any harm"
*reads newspaper*
"Oh look, a pedophile, I wish he'd go f*** off and die."

Eh, so much for Good Samaritans.

Of course, this doesn't mean I get a free license to act like a d**k, the poor child can't get all my love and attention (or all my money either, I wanna reserve that for One Piece manga volumes dammit) but a donation of even $10 can probably go a long way. What I'm trying to say is, maybe we should all stop short and realise our weaknesses in this planet of 6,900,000+ individuals. We can't really want to know EVERY single person, but we can cherish the friends we make.

I'm guessing this is the reason why we Singaporeans are a bit of a moody or apathetic bunch, we wonder in this country if we're ever going to do stuff like help reduce our country's Income Inequality to really make EVERYBODY happy but you just can't. Happiness for people, and Singaporeans of course (not those bloody foreigners/PRs, they don't get to feel happy, coming here and stealing our jobs and distancing themselves from their loved ones in their home country), won't be solved by trying to make them appeasable from YOUR standards of happiness. Happiness, I believe, differs for many people. Maybe it's you practising your religion, talking smack about superficial celebrities with your friends, just trying your darndest to be good or even just playing Neopets that gives us all that warm fuzzy feeling.

And now I feel good about myself writing this. I wish I'd go f*** off and die.

First post embarrassment syndrome

Wheee! My first time writing a blog!

Well, this will be the only post for now, Though since most of you know me as a certain 'F Maths Guy', with which I feel... confuzzled (whatever the heck that means), I think it may be a time to shed more light about myself onto you guys (just hope it doesn't burn your eyes).

Just some indicators on what I like in popular culture and media:

One Piece: a manga about rubber pirates. Obviously it can't be any more than that, dealing with themes such as friendship and dreams, it's even for kids HOW CAN IT BE DEEP

Gravity Falls: A television show about a precocious young boy, his possibly mentally unstable sister with a warped view of the world, their grandfather who profits from peoples' gullibility, their acquaintances being a slacker and an apathetic teenager. A bad show about bad people.

Personal favorite webcomics including Gunnerkrigg Court and Dr. Mcninja; the former being an overly-pretentious comic about magic and technology while the latter is based on overused cliches seen in many movies thought of as "cool", clear signs of immaturity.

I also like playing games, sometimes Neopets, though I should obviously be doing more productive stuff like preparing for IB education since that will bring me to a good university and in that good university I will probably get a maths degree and with that maths degree I will hold the privelege of getting weird stares from everyone as 'obsessed with math' (what makes it worse is that they're true) and... well that sort of future doesn't seem appealing to me but what to do. :/

Eh, that's it for now, felt fun writing and not doing math for once for some strange reason.